but we started talking about how we've been feeling lately. I thought we had some amazing stuff and i feel like i should share..
the following is almost exactly as the conversation followed....
my friend and i on growing up:
(Friend)how have you been lately?
(me)good, i feel like im growing up and i realized i CAN do anything if i want i feel amazing
(friend)haha thats cool so now do u know what you want to do with this new sense of amazing potential?
(me)write music. make new friends and make take chances with people i mean it started earlier this week when i was driving and then i feel like im in college aready since i blocked uneccesary things out of my life and then i got stuck doing a group project all alone and no one really helped
and i realized if i try i can do, and if i can do it, why not do it its like a lame cheezy nerd quote from star wars
try not. do or do not. there is no try
and i feel like im really growing up.
{(also)} I had 2 days to work on the project and i single handedly got my group an "A" they dont deserve {(and)} i started cutting things out. like mundane stuff like reading comics watching tv talking to people who don't really show interest and make things worse
plus i only have two classes now and i feel really accomplished as a student
and lately Ive been tying up loose end with lost friends i mean im becoming an adult no use for child hood games like hate
(Friend)thats really good ruben, sounds like youre really fixing yourself up =] which is good cuz youve always beeen one sweet ass guy, and you deserve
(me)i am really happy and its working i mean there was times when i was sad, but it happens to everyone and you know there was relationships that didnt work but it was for the better i love who i am and how i got there and who I'm here with
there was a girl who was really mean to me for a while and one day i talked to her and she changed a lot she became religious and shes really nice to everyone, its really amazing what time does to people
(friend)its not just that, its also that youre still young, and you need to explore new ppl and new things. being so attached and dependent on someone else so early on probably adds more stress in life than happiness at times yea it's weird.. i know what you mean i ran into some ppl from middle school at {(College)} and they're different but it's nice to see how ppl grow "every falls in love, theres no age limit. and all relationships can be hectic. im not saying dont be in love, im just saying that theres no way to be sure that itll last forever. all thats important is that if you feel good, do it. but dont make it your mission in life to keep a relationship together when you know its doing more harm than good"
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