I swear!

Ive been meaning to write this one for a while and i finally made time for it,
short but simple i hope you enjoy

Lying has never been good.

the more you lie, the harder it gets for you.
and the longer you have to keep it going, if you tell the truth from the beginning than you don't need to keep anything going, and you shouldn't have anything to fear. If someone is mad at you for telling the truth just remember it could be a lot worse, they could find out you were lying. Everyone usually does find out you were, just save everyone the trouble and start off by telling the truth. It couldn't hurt :)

New Stuff

So the other day i was instant messaging my old friends, ( i wont mention names)
but we started talking about how we've been feeling lately. I thought we had some amazing stuff and i feel like i should share..
the following is almost exactly as the conversation followed....

my friend and i on growing up:
(Friend)how have you been lately?
(me)good, i feel like im growing up and i realized i CAN do anything if i want i feel amazing

(friend)haha thats cool so now do u know what you want to do with this new sense of amazing potential?

(me)write music. make new friends and make take chances with people i mean it started earlier this week when i was driving and then i feel like im in college aready since i blocked uneccesary things out of my life and then i got stuck doing a group project all alone and no one really helped
and i realized if i try i can do, and if i can do it, why not do it its like a lame cheezy nerd quote from star wars
try not. do or do not. there is no try
and i feel like im really growing up.
{(also)} I had 2 days to work on the project and i single handedly got my group an "A" they dont deserve {(and)} i started cutting things out. like mundane stuff like reading comics watching tv talking to people who don't really show interest and make things worse
plus i only have two classes now and i feel really accomplished as a student
and lately Ive been tying up loose end with lost friends i mean im becoming an adult no use for child hood games like hate

(Friend)thats really good ruben, sounds like youre really fixing yourself up =] which is good cuz youve always beeen one sweet ass guy, and you deserve

(me)i am really happy and its working i mean there was times when i was sad, but it happens to everyone and you know there was relationships that didnt work but it was for the better i love who i am and how i got there and who I'm here with

there was a girl who was really mean to me for a while and one day i talked to her and she changed a lot she became religious and shes really nice to everyone, its really amazing what time does to people

(friend)its not just that, its also that youre still young, and you need to explore new ppl and new things. being so attached and dependent on someone else so early on probably adds more stress in life than happiness at times yea it's weird.. i know what you mean i ran into some ppl from middle school at {(College)} and they're different but it's nice to see how ppl grow "every falls in love, theres no age limit. and all relationships can be hectic. im not saying dont be in love, im just saying that theres no way to be sure that itll last forever. all thats important is that if you feel good, do it. but dont make it your mission in life to keep a relationship together when you know its doing more harm than good"

Inspire Break Free!

Found a new way to help you fools! :)

Breathe.

Now, every single post on this site is completely mine and of my own creation.
Except for this next post.


"The whole system that we live in, drills into us that we’re powerless that we’re weak, that our society is evil, that it’s crowd ridden etcetera and so forth. It’s all a big fat lie. We are powerful, beautiful, extraordinary. There is no reason why we cannot understand who we truly are, where we’re going. There is no reason why the average individual can not be fully empowered we are incredibly powerful beings.

And I think I’ve spent 17 years of my life, and the first 17 trying to become something. I wanted to become good at things. I wanted to become good at tennis, I wanted to become good at school, and grades, and everything I kind of viewed in that perspective. I’m not okay the way I am, but if I got good at things... I realized I had the game all wrong. The game was to find out what I already was.

Now in our culture we’ve been trained for individual differences to stand out. So you look at each person and the media kid is brighter, dumber, older, richer, poorer. And we make all these dimensional distinctions and put them in categories and treat them that way. And we get so that we only see others as separate from ourselves and the ways in which they’re separate. And one of the dramatic characteristics of experience is being with another person and suddenly seeing the ways in which they’re like you, not different from you, and experiencing the fact; that which is essence in you and which essence in me is indeed ONE. The understanding that there is no OTHER. It is all ONE. And I wasn’t born (Ruben Ceja), I was just born as a human being, and then I learned this business of who I am and whether I’m good or bad, achieving or not. All that’s learned along the way.

When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace

The old appeals to racial, sexual, and religious chauvinism, to rabid nationalist fervor, are beginning not to work. A new consciousness is developing that sees the Earth as a single organism. that recognized that an organism at war with itself is doomed.

Bill Hicks used to finish his shows with this

‘Life’s like a ride in an amusement park, and when you go on it you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. The ride goes up and down, around and around, it has thrills and chills, and it's very brightly colored, and it's very loud, and it's fun for a while. Some have been on the ride a long time, and they begin to wonder, "Is this real, or is this just a ride?"

And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and say, "Hey, don't worry; don't be afraid, ever. Because this is just a ride."

And we...kill those people.

"Shut him up! I've got a lot invested in this ride, shut him up! Look at my furrows of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real."

It's just a ride.
But we always kill the good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok? But it doesn't matter, because it's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort, not work, no job, no savings of money. Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love.'

(The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one. Here's what we can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would pay for many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace.)"

new years

Happy New Year!!!
i know I haven't posted anything in a looooog time, but I have a valid reason.
I made this blog to spread my happiness and joy to others but I hadn't really been happy enough to be able to attempt to spread anything other than depression.

But now I am back!!!
Ok so every new years you always hear about "New Years Resolutions!" but i never really thought about it until this year.

Andi had this thought,"Why do we have to wait for a new year to have to want to change?" I Dont get why its only a once a year thing
if every day is a gift then shouldn't we be spending them wisely and try to better ourselves all the time! it makes no sense of you really wanted to better yourself you would do it everyday and not wait until the end of the year to try to be a better human!